Drawing a blank

I was playing Scrabble with my dad a couple of weeks ago when I had the good fortune to pick up a blank tile at the very start of the game. I couldn't quite make a seven-letter word with it so I held on to it in the hope that I would be able to use it to maximum effect before the end of the game. (If you manage to put all of your tiles down at once you get a 50pt bonus, which is a considerable advantage when the average score is about 20) Somehow, the right letters never came and I kept the blank until the last go. It seemed that chasing the impossible dream had ruined my game, even though I still won, I think.


This reminds me of my predicament. I have a dream, I don't know whether my dream will ever be fulfilled but if I 'play my blank', if I compromise my ideals, then the dream is ruined, or at the very least tainted. I may have some opportunities to 'play my blank' but not in any really rewarding way and I think I would hate myself if I did.


All in all, life is a gamble but I have to be true to myself.